Dear Diary: I love Myself Today, Not Like Yesterday!

*Please note that this post is not geared to anyone. It is simply my feelings and thoughts about myself and the general pressure to look good!*

This past week I felt like the crummiest person on this planet. Worthless. I have brainwashed myself to believe I am the grossest person in Dubai/back home. I am at a very low point. So low…it hurts my bones. I don’t want to leave my house or for people to see me…it’s bad!

My brain is working at a billion miles a minute processing awful thoughts and I want it all to stop.

Social.Media.SUCKS (sometimes!)

Imagine a blogger saying that? Well I did!


This whole World is being destroyed via social media. Planting images and thoughts into our minds of what the perfect person/life should look like. At least that is how I see it. I have a love/hate with the Kardashian’s… Do you feel they started this trend of who posts the most beautiful pictures? Who looks the richest? Who wears the most designer goods? The daily struggles of body image is painful. The obsession that girls need to be on point every single day is scary. We need to be looking stylin’ and gorgeous at all times. I hate it. I am so fed up! I am who I AM. I will not fall into this self destroying pit of vanity. Especially here in the Beverly Hills of Middle East where the temptations are at our fingertips. Common’ how often are we at the malls trying to update our wardrobes to be an “it girl”!

Today I am vouching to LOVE myself. It has been a struggle ever since I shared this post months ago {HERE}

Today is the day. I don’t care anymore if you think I am pretty, ugly, fat or skinny. I am who I am. I am not directing this to you / my readers, just throwing my thoughts out for the world to hear, that’s all! It’s therapeutic for me! My weight has been a constant battle. I don’t care anymore. So long as I am eating well then it does not matter that I weight 60.4KG yes it’s all out there for you to know what I weigh now. BECAUSE I DON’T CARE. I may never be a SKINNY minnie but I accept that now. I may never look like the rest of the girls in Dubai or around the world BECAUSE I AM ME. I am fed up to my head with pressure to look a certain way so that I can be accepted in this cult. I am PERFECT THE WAY I AM! I may have weighed 52KG last year but I was not EATING. I was practically starving myself.

I am embracing my 60KG self today because I LOVE ME. I may not exactly 100% believe those words I am writing, but I am trying to. Loving yourself is hard. But it’s time. It’s time for all of us to stop giving a rats ass how skinny or “fat” we are. Love your body. Love your curves, your stretch marks, your handle bars (you may be the lucky one who doesn’t have any of these). Because there are far more important things in this world to focus our energy on. Enjoying the simple joys of life.

We are women. We are important. We are strong. We are powerful. We can change lives.

Why must we forget all these important things and only focus on good-looks? We are all here for reason. Instead of focusing on how you look why don’t you appreciate what you are wonderful at? Are you a good cook, baker, artist, crafts, sewing, sports, charitable, helpful, selfless? Let’s applaud those things today.


Let’s stop wasting our time and thoughts on toxic things that make us jealous and angry women. Let’s be happy for each other and support each other. Let’s stop competing to be the number one Mom, or hottest Mom! Rise up and stop hiding your magic! YOU matter! No matter your weight or appearance, we need to unite and love one another.

Have a great weekend y’all!

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